nevermind

It has come apparent that i can't not blog. I've decided to give you all an update.

-I got to hold a perfect new baby yesterday (as shown) and it was absolute bliss. I cannot wait for that step in my life. Life would be so much better if everyone could hold newborns everyday.

-My bed just broke. I was showing my parents some youtube videos and they both got on. then it broke. Im currently in the guest room while the gorilla glue dries (hopefully my bed will be okay, dont think its ghetto or anything!)

-My dear friend Stuart got baptized. He is such an amazing example to me.

-Christmas is coming up, and my sister is getting married in just one week! (oh there will be so much to talk about on here after that!)

-Life is absolutely amazing right now. I know i seem to say that all the time, but my reason for not blogging in the longest time was because i was trying to get over some things and i did not want to risk any negativity that would influence you all in a bad way.

-If you need any gift recommendations i have sooo many. Please, let me know and if there is an enormous response ill create a post especially for that.

This christmas,
absorb it. absolutely consume the good things about it.
spend time with your wonderful family. enjoy them. cherish everything you do.
think of the meaning of christmas & keep it in focus.

life, is life. but it is oh so wonderful.


much love,


j.

pause

I am taking a break from blogging. I hate to do this to you, but, the holidays will be incredibly busy and i have oh so much to do!

Before i leave, here is some advice.

1. i love you
2. life is incredibly interesting, embrace it.
3. I will take many pictures to capture everything.
4. I'll miss this.


much love,


j.

confession time

I don't know what it is, but i have had a huge weight on me all day today, and the past couple of days. There are so so many things going on, and that's probably why. I just am so worried that i'll feel like this for a long time, and that's what scares me most.

Last night, I went to Urban Ministries in Durham. I absolutely loved serving food to people who need it most. Honestly, if i could pick the thing that makes me the happiest to do every day, i would choose this. There is nothing more rewarding than helping others.

At the moment, I am sleeping more than normal and trying to spend as much time with friends as possible. That's the easiest way to distract myself.

As always though, there are so many things to look forward to and although they seem far away at the time, they will come quickly.

Keep calm & carry on

much love,


j.

Behold

Sometimes, materialism is okay. I have wanted these for the longest, longest time.
Come christmas time, they will be on my feet.

love. love. love.

see?


what do you love?

an unwanted error

I spent almost an hour creating a very detailed description of my birthday & thanksgiving, and it got all erased. So, this post won't be as good, but i've decided to summarize those days wth one word descriptions:

pink. pigs. cupcakes. biggs. turkey. friends. driving. rice krispies. juicy couture. short jokes. blakelys. facebook notifications. apples to apples. photobooth. christmas music. homemade food. boys. walmart.

and some others.

i hope yours was absolutely wonderful.

now on to christmas and jessica's wedding.

much love,


j.

old old old

This picture of me was taken three years ago. I was fifteen! In just two days, i will be during eighteen. The time between then and now has gone by way too fast.

I'm ready for whatever new things eighteen brings to me. ( college, voting, all the usual crap)

I'll probably be referring back to this post once i'm married and with kids, which hopefully will not come soon. I need time to fully become myself before i can be the best wife and mother. That'll probably be in about 8 years.

but, you honestly have no idea what life will bring you until it has already come.

I am grateful for everything i have been given, have experienced, and have learned throughout these years of my life.


much love,


j.

me, the blogging bum

I have not blogged in a long time. maybe not that long, but long enough. So, because of this slack, i am going to write three blog posts in one post. Maybe kind of four. we'll see how it goes....

Gum

During a class last week, i felt something hit my desk from the back. I looked back and knew who it was. After the bell rang i confronted her asking is she through gum at me, she died and i pointed to it on the ground, "ohh...." she said. I made her pick it up and kind of had an obvious hostile attitude. as she was walking outside of the room she muttered something (not putting it on here) I just think the entire situation is ridiculous. why would she do that!? was she trying to get attention from me? and even if she was, it wasn't good attention. this situation has left me in a lot of confusion. Sometimes people do stupid things for no sensible reason.

Change

There has been a lot of change recently in my life, and there always will be. During change, it is usual to or to not want it. no matter what you want, it's going to happen. once change happens, it's easy to want the old life back, but you must not dwell on the past. life is about change, and no matter if it's good or bad, you must accept it and move on...

Gerbils
I have already gone through five gerbils. It began with two, remmy & gemma. Remmy got sick and died of a brain tumor. Gemma needed someone, so we got Oakley. Only about two-three weeks later, Gemma died of old age. So then, we got Supra, who we then later figured out was actually a girl a renamed Olivia. I only had her for about 3 weeks, maybe. She died probably from starvation. Yesterday, i got bennett. He turns out to be Oakleys brother, crazy i know. This whole process is insane.

Life is full of change, stupid people & dying pets.

& upcoming birthdays.


much love,


j.

patience

(my class, ansleigh, noah, abby and lily)

I live very efficiently. Always doing things as fast as i can. One of the hardest things for me to do is to live patiently. If i want something to happen, i want it right now without anytime to wait. Because i was not born with the gift of patience, i had to teach it to myself. At the same time i realized how essentially i needed to learn it, i had many things happen in my life to help me have a kick start. I had friends sending me messages of patience, and things happening to test my patience.
It's easy to live your life waiting always for the next thing to happen and to forget and not care much about whats happening at that moment. Embrace anything & everything. Stop living in the constant, unsatisfying habit of always wanting what's next.

Live in the moment, patiently.

Much love,


j.

Day 9: November 13th

pink bubble wrap

Day 8: November 12th

pink body

the inconvienence of me

As everyone knows, i am really short. and lately i have been realizing more and more how inconvenient it is.
Here's my starting list:
-every pair of jeans i buy have to be rolled up
-it takes more energy for me to run than other people
-i cant reach everything
-if i gain weight its much more obvious
-when i hug people im in their armpit

The second to last one has been a problem lately. I have gained weight. By nothing more than eating junk and junk and junk. So, im stopping now. Because before i know it, itll be out of control and way past fixing.
I understand that some of you guys will say that you havent even noticed anything (or maybe you have) but i have, and thats what matters, and there is nothing wrong with changing my eating habits. especially to being more healthy.

Although i cant control my height, i can control my healthiness.
& you can too.


much love,


j.

Day 7: November 11th

pink ears

Day 6: November 10th

our pink camping fortress

That moment

Andrew Blakely will always be my best friend. Since a little over a year and a half ago, we met. Having no idea that our friendship would last this long. I have always known this kid would do amazing things. No matter what was going on in his life, i knew. Today, while going on with everything normal, i got a call from andrew. It wasn't all that surprising because he usually calls me when he's actually free (he is so busy its insane!) Our conversation went something like this:
me: andrew!
andrew: hey jeanette, i come bearing good news.
me: yes?
andrew: i have decided to go on a mission
me: *pause* i always knew it andrew! i always did!
andrew: yeah, ive been thinking about it for awhile and i just decided that im following through
me: you have no idea how long ive been waiting for you to say this!
(and it continued in somewhat normalty)

honestly, the best moment of my life. i have been waiting and waiting and patiently knowing this would happen.

and it finally did.

i cannot wait for all that the future holds. its only going up from here!

Life is absolutely amazing. absolutely, incredibly, enrichingly, amazing.

absorb it, breathe it, engolf it.

Only 2 more weeks til i get to see him. cannot wait!


much much much much much love,


j.

Day 4: November 9th

pink label

life & it's consistency

The present time. It's either good, bad or just happening. It's easy to forget about the future, but difficult to forget about the past. The present time for me, is calm. Although i could easily be stressed about various crazy things, i'm choosing to have a calm approach. You can always choose how you feel, but you can't control how others feel or react. It is easy to fall into the trap of consistency with other people. It can be easy to be influenced by their reactions, but there is never a set type. No matter how 'traditional' your normal feelings should be in any situation, it doesnt have to be that way. For example, if someone is harassing me, and has been for quite some time, for lack of forgiveness, i can choose to be angry with them. Or i can take my current approach which is to stay calm and back away as often as possible. It is so difficult for me to go against the norm, but it is possible. You can completely control your reactions and feelings in any situation, but that does not mean it is easy.

In other current events, my birthday is in two weeks. I am so excited, as i always am for the one day i can be conceited out of the entire year. I hope to create a gigantic blog post of the entire day, and how amazing it was. The next day after, thanksgiving, me and my parents will be driving in the early morning to front royal, virginia to stay with my sister's future hubby's family. The friday after that, i will drive to dc to see the blakely's!!

There is always, always something to look forward to.

What's in your future? How will you choose to react?

much love,

j.

Day 3: November 8th

Day 2: November 7th

utter coach-ness

my life in pink

The exclusive month-long series of daily photos to capture a specific characteristic well known in my lifestyle.

(sounds professional huh)


I have decided to have a 30 day long series daily photos to express my love for my favorite color.


This will not interfere with my other blog posts, but will be just an addition to my blog posts.





one month of pink





Day 1: November 6th





ready for this explosion of pink?


much love,


j.

absolutely adorable

not exactly birthday related...

just some really cute things i like.

toaster charm



all juicy charms ever



yum yum yummm



im in love with these


p.s. this is mainly for louisa :)



much love,


j.

pumpcakes

{pumpkins and cupcakes}

Halloween is today! But i wont blog about it til tomorrow, because the best part of this day hasnt happened yet.


This is part of the mirror in my parents bathroom. Although i'm not as committed to post its as my mother, i feel like i need them to keep me sane constantly. With colleges and junk lately, i feel like im barely keeping up.


The prettiest cupcakes i've ever made. I absolutely love cupcakes, and my dear friend mary blakely does too. Sometime in the future, we're opening a cupcake shop. just you wait.


here's stuart and i with our pumpkins. The pig one i made on wednesday, but we made the other two yesterday. I made the nerd and he made the man with the mustache.

I'm choosing tonight to soak in halloween and enjoy absolutely everything about it. I think you should too. Why not enjoy every minute of life if you have to live it anyway?


Much love,


j.

Seeing Stars

(mind the ones done with glitter glue)

When i was little, i remember being extremely frustrated that i couldn't draw stars. i remember crying and being so upset that i couldn't understand how they worked. It took me a little while til i could finally do them. And now, i can do them effortlessly.

Life is about learning technique, and mastering it. Without even knowing it, you will learn things that to you now, require no extra thought.

Life is amazing, and i am astounded daily at the capabilities that everyone possesses.


Much love,


j.

one way is okay

(baby sitting owen this afternoon)

There are so many incidents in my life where i have always done something for someone, and it has never been returned. It may be frustrating, but it is better to do the act, whether you get it returned or not.
Although, in most situations, working equally is how it is supposed to be.

THE reason you do things for other people, should never be to expect something in return.
Selfless service is the best possible thing you could give anyone,
and in some way or another you'll receive it back.

The way to find yourself, is through serving others.


Much love,


j.

futuristic thinking

While speaking today with one of my very good friends Colette, which i constantly have extremely deep conversations with, i created the perfect quote:
"If you aren't constantly thinking of your future, you won't have one"
If you aren't constantly thinking of how your daily actions will affect your future, you will not have the future you want. Although the smallest things might not seem to make a difference, they do add up.

I want you to have the best life possible, and i know you do too.

Much love,


j.

beauty in sickness

Being sick feels like [insert bad word here]

In the most positive way possible, i love being sick, not including any of the symptoms. I love being sick, because it makes me realize each time after recovery, that i shouldn't take health for granted. Or anything for granted.
Last tuesday, my other gerbil died. I was completely okay (although i do hate the feeling of touching something that was once alive) I got another one that afternoon and named it Supra (after the shoes) but i just call him baby. I realized that although that gerbil wasn't my favorite, i could've appreciated it more during it's life.

My cliche life lesson of-the-day is:

Never take anything for granted, and appreciate everything in the moment.


Much love,


j.

Stronger

(a super old picture from a long time ago, don't stare too hard at my pants)

I realized tonight when i was driving home from kickboxing that i've gotten a lot stronger throughout my years. yes, it took me til just about an hour ago to figure this out. Not only am i much stronger physically, but most dramatically mentally. I am much mature in certain situations, and know more what to expect.

No wonder old people are wise. Life by itself, without you knowing it, will teach you everything you need to know.

I am thankful for everything life throws at me, and everything i have experienced to learn something from.

No matter what.

Life is a ride and there is never anything that's worth giving it up.

Much love,

j.

my lil franchisers

(the mother of all curly fries)

Dear Arianna, Kambyl, Tori, Sam, Kendra, Torron & you.

Go out there and BLOG!

about anything & everything.

I'll be right along wth you.

much love,

j.

trashy to the T

I spent my afternoon at the fair. First of all, im classy & the fair is frankly, very obviously
Trashy!
But, i chose to embrace it.

I chose to ignore the smell of fried anything, the garbage on the ground, the lumpily-stuffed screaming-of-polyester stuffed animals, the invisible but oh-so-there germs floating around, the yelling in country accents, and all that junk.

Positively, I found some things i loved. Surprised?




I had to. I had to. I might not ever wear it...but i couldn't let it stay in that horrible place forever. It needed a suitable home.



Now THIS is the stuff. I found this amazing candy place (shack/tent) and they had all of this candy i totally forgot existed but a long time ago loved. i thought most of these things were extinct, but some are still around and are most definitely loved by me.

Here's the entire list:

satellite wafers
necco wafers
circus peanuts
blow pops
blooper buttons
carnival flavored skittles
bazooka gum
sixlets
various lollipops
candy necklaces
tex hot giant jelly beans (theyre hot)
violet flavored candy
pop rocks
razzles
sweet tarts
lemon heads
truly fruit jellys
giant krabby patties
dum dums
(i think thats about it)

jealous? go get some!

Now, for the prime moment of the evening.

First of all, *close your eyes* and imagine the most intense feeling of love youve ever felt. (like mother to child) now imagine that amplified times infinity.


envelope this moment.

i couldnt stop starring, i couldnt stop crying and i have never ever ever wanted to be cuddling with all those lil snorters than anything ever before in my life. The most obvious one was sooo soo addicting to stare at. I hope i feel towards my babies as i feel towards these piggies. im sure i'll love them way more than these babies, but i cant even comprehend it yet.

uh oh. baby hungry. (dont freak)

maybe i should just break in and spend the night in that pin. its worth the poop and slobber.



Remember this? well, here's the proof.

much-o love-o forever-o,


j.

12:34

It's about time i blogged about this scary re-occurring incident.
For about six entire months, i've had this freakish event where almost EVERY single time it's 12:34 a.m. OR p.m. i just happen to look at the clock.

I've been slightly paranoid about this, trying to figure out exactly what it means.

But hopefully, it's just coincidence.



Anything like this ever happen to you?


mucho love-o,


j.

the present

Kendra: noun. the craziest person you will ever meet & jeanette's best friend.

right this second. i am crying. why?
I miss my best friend.

she makes me conquer the impossible.
and there is no one else like her.

she's been gone since wednesday and i feel like a gigantic chunk has been ripped out of me.

but hopefully,
i will see her tonight.

chunk unchunked.


much love,


j.

the best and worst day of my life

Once i woke up this morning, i had absolutely no idea what would happen today (as anyone, but you get the dramatic point)

I went to my doctors appointment, thinking nothing abnormal would happen. The doc said i had to be updated on three of my shots. This was the first time i had ever had a completely confident attitude towards shots. Soon my "okay, let's get this over with" attitude would die quickly. They gave me the first shot, completely fine. the second, ouch and the third, i fainted. I woke up from my faint (which always feels like youre napping for 10 hours and wake up in utter confusion) and felt like complete crap. crap is actually an understatement. I have never felt that miserable, icky, gross, dizzy, throw-uppy, disgusting, poopy in my entire almost eighteen years of life. That was the most horrible moment of my life. I laid there on that paper covered doctor bed for about an hour. I thought that feeling would never end. I felt ashamed. ashamed that my body was so weak and couldnt handle it. I always like to believe im strong, but moments like these make me feel completely deflated. BUT like everything in life, i got better. I eventually, gradually improved in how i felt. I finally felt better enough to go to school to be there for the birthday of my favorite boy...

Dear Chris,
you completely amplify my life.
I love how we have so much in common, but so much in different,
i don't think anyone else in the world gets along as well as us.
i absolutely loved today and i know that you did too.
thanks for helping me completely forget about my horrible morning, putting up with my crippled complaints, and letting me buy you stuff.
we will forever talk about our love for shoes, and for you, i'll say i can pull off supras. but we will just have to see.

heart,

me.
(because saying jeanette makes it seem too formal)




oh hey, here's me and chris at bk.

& me with one of my booboo-ed arms.


there is always bad to more fully appreciate the good.
obviously.


much love,


j.

here comes halloweenie

Here is me on halloween last year. I love this picture for a number of reasons.

#1. im having a very intimate kiss with a velcro monkey
#2. i was tinkerbell
#3. it was halloweeeeeen
#4. i had my curly hair, which i kind of (not really) miss.
#5. my totally anti-buff-before-boxing arms.

Halloween is in 19 days.

Me and my mommy went to this local pumpkin patch today and got six of the cutest pumpkins in all of existence. I seriously kissed one of them. That's how seriously intense my relationship is with autumn/fall/halloween/cute pumpkins.

Go! Get a pumpkin (or two or fifty...)
no kissing mandatory, but highly suggested

Did i seriously tell you to kiss pumpkins?

this blog is going downhill.

But! life is amazing and there is always so much to look forward to.

beaucoup d'amour,


j.

my sister got old

Dear duh duh,
today you are one year older and yet another year away from me at college. In just about two months you will be forever married to matty poo (hope you dont get mad at me for calling him that). On saturday i found this thermal mug that had 'glee' on the side. I knew it was for you until i realized it was cheap quality. I'm still searching for your perfect gift. You don't deserve anything poor in quality, so you definitely deserve matt. No matter how caught up you get into your upcoming new life, ill always be here for you, still catching up.


(almost always in step)

(on the beach in charleston, it was freezing)

(freshman year for me, she was so nice to actually pay attention to her little sister)

(dancing. even though we werent all that good, it didnt matter)

(still okay being seen with me and my bubbly chanel shades)

(graduation)

(eating at kneaders)

(christmas break 2009)

(showing her love while my visit to her apartment in march)

(right before she left me again)

(our personalities in two bags)

(its love)


I absolutely love you Jessica (duds). I cant wait to see you in november (for thankgiving and my birthday) and in december (for your wedding). I wish for you everything good in the world. Although we don't look alike, we still smile the same.

I smile for you.


Much love,


j.


p.s. my friend chris says happy birthday. although you don't know him, you'll soon hear all about him.

heart mail.

{getting mail, the old fashioned way is my favorite}

Slow

Down

Calm

Down

Dont

Worry

Dont

Hurry

Trust The

Process

-alexandra stoddard-

mail always makes my day

Much love,

j.

Reinforced Respect

I am in the careful process of creating a group at school called Reinforced Respect. It is mainly focused on anti-bullying and amplifying youre attitude towards other people. The reason i have decided to create this group is because i find it incredibly important that everyone deserves respect. In this past month of school there has already been three suicides across the nation due to bullying. That is more than enough. I know, that if there were more thoughtful individuals in the world, and people who actually cared for others, this could be easily prevented.

What can you do?

-Approach every human-being with an open-minded attitude. Try to understand where theyre coming from to further understand them as a person and why they do what they do.

-Appreciate what makes someone different. Everyone has something about them that is different than you and others.

-Stop caring about what others think about you.

-Popularity is not as important as kindness.

Bullying pushes my BIG RED BUTTON.

Nothing frustrates me more than people being insensitive, hurtful or selfish to other people.

Kill them with kindness.

It is our choices that make us who we are.

I promise you, that i will always be a friend to you, and treat you with sincere respect.

Much love,


j.


(to join my mini-movement, just let me know!)

for my christina

{best snow day of my life}

This girl , makes me feel beautiful on my worst days.

Her constant compliments always keep me going.

She deserves every blog post to be dedicated to her, and maybe they are.

Christina, you deserve absolutely everything you want in life.

I love you immeasurably.

much love,

j.

you.

You will never be able to comprehend how much you mean to me.

I believe

I believe everyone deserves what they honestly desire for.

I believe in love.

I believe that it's okay to not make my bed.

I believe in God.

I believe everyone deserves respect.

I believe in being healthy

I believe that people should be allowed to love what they love.

I believe everyone should be forgiven.

I believe blogging is extremely therapeutical

I believe in respect.

I believe in the importance of saving the environment

I believe in freedom of expression

I believe in you.

let's just say.....

considering how beautiful and yummy my lunch was today,

it must mean that

Life is good.

besides my sucky kidneys.