an unwanted error

I spent almost an hour creating a very detailed description of my birthday & thanksgiving, and it got all erased. So, this post won't be as good, but i've decided to summarize those days wth one word descriptions:

pink. pigs. cupcakes. biggs. turkey. friends. driving. rice krispies. juicy couture. short jokes. blakelys. facebook notifications. apples to apples. photobooth. christmas music. homemade food. boys. walmart.

and some others.

i hope yours was absolutely wonderful.

now on to christmas and jessica's wedding.

much love,


j.

old old old

This picture of me was taken three years ago. I was fifteen! In just two days, i will be during eighteen. The time between then and now has gone by way too fast.

I'm ready for whatever new things eighteen brings to me. ( college, voting, all the usual crap)

I'll probably be referring back to this post once i'm married and with kids, which hopefully will not come soon. I need time to fully become myself before i can be the best wife and mother. That'll probably be in about 8 years.

but, you honestly have no idea what life will bring you until it has already come.

I am grateful for everything i have been given, have experienced, and have learned throughout these years of my life.


much love,


j.

me, the blogging bum

I have not blogged in a long time. maybe not that long, but long enough. So, because of this slack, i am going to write three blog posts in one post. Maybe kind of four. we'll see how it goes....

Gum

During a class last week, i felt something hit my desk from the back. I looked back and knew who it was. After the bell rang i confronted her asking is she through gum at me, she died and i pointed to it on the ground, "ohh...." she said. I made her pick it up and kind of had an obvious hostile attitude. as she was walking outside of the room she muttered something (not putting it on here) I just think the entire situation is ridiculous. why would she do that!? was she trying to get attention from me? and even if she was, it wasn't good attention. this situation has left me in a lot of confusion. Sometimes people do stupid things for no sensible reason.

Change

There has been a lot of change recently in my life, and there always will be. During change, it is usual to or to not want it. no matter what you want, it's going to happen. once change happens, it's easy to want the old life back, but you must not dwell on the past. life is about change, and no matter if it's good or bad, you must accept it and move on...

Gerbils
I have already gone through five gerbils. It began with two, remmy & gemma. Remmy got sick and died of a brain tumor. Gemma needed someone, so we got Oakley. Only about two-three weeks later, Gemma died of old age. So then, we got Supra, who we then later figured out was actually a girl a renamed Olivia. I only had her for about 3 weeks, maybe. She died probably from starvation. Yesterday, i got bennett. He turns out to be Oakleys brother, crazy i know. This whole process is insane.

Life is full of change, stupid people & dying pets.

& upcoming birthdays.


much love,


j.

patience

(my class, ansleigh, noah, abby and lily)

I live very efficiently. Always doing things as fast as i can. One of the hardest things for me to do is to live patiently. If i want something to happen, i want it right now without anytime to wait. Because i was not born with the gift of patience, i had to teach it to myself. At the same time i realized how essentially i needed to learn it, i had many things happen in my life to help me have a kick start. I had friends sending me messages of patience, and things happening to test my patience.
It's easy to live your life waiting always for the next thing to happen and to forget and not care much about whats happening at that moment. Embrace anything & everything. Stop living in the constant, unsatisfying habit of always wanting what's next.

Live in the moment, patiently.

Much love,


j.

Day 9: November 13th

pink bubble wrap

Day 8: November 12th

pink body

the inconvienence of me

As everyone knows, i am really short. and lately i have been realizing more and more how inconvenient it is.
Here's my starting list:
-every pair of jeans i buy have to be rolled up
-it takes more energy for me to run than other people
-i cant reach everything
-if i gain weight its much more obvious
-when i hug people im in their armpit

The second to last one has been a problem lately. I have gained weight. By nothing more than eating junk and junk and junk. So, im stopping now. Because before i know it, itll be out of control and way past fixing.
I understand that some of you guys will say that you havent even noticed anything (or maybe you have) but i have, and thats what matters, and there is nothing wrong with changing my eating habits. especially to being more healthy.

Although i cant control my height, i can control my healthiness.
& you can too.


much love,


j.

Day 7: November 11th

pink ears

Day 6: November 10th

our pink camping fortress

That moment

Andrew Blakely will always be my best friend. Since a little over a year and a half ago, we met. Having no idea that our friendship would last this long. I have always known this kid would do amazing things. No matter what was going on in his life, i knew. Today, while going on with everything normal, i got a call from andrew. It wasn't all that surprising because he usually calls me when he's actually free (he is so busy its insane!) Our conversation went something like this:
me: andrew!
andrew: hey jeanette, i come bearing good news.
me: yes?
andrew: i have decided to go on a mission
me: *pause* i always knew it andrew! i always did!
andrew: yeah, ive been thinking about it for awhile and i just decided that im following through
me: you have no idea how long ive been waiting for you to say this!
(and it continued in somewhat normalty)

honestly, the best moment of my life. i have been waiting and waiting and patiently knowing this would happen.

and it finally did.

i cannot wait for all that the future holds. its only going up from here!

Life is absolutely amazing. absolutely, incredibly, enrichingly, amazing.

absorb it, breathe it, engolf it.

Only 2 more weeks til i get to see him. cannot wait!


much much much much much love,


j.

Day 4: November 9th

pink label

life & it's consistency

The present time. It's either good, bad or just happening. It's easy to forget about the future, but difficult to forget about the past. The present time for me, is calm. Although i could easily be stressed about various crazy things, i'm choosing to have a calm approach. You can always choose how you feel, but you can't control how others feel or react. It is easy to fall into the trap of consistency with other people. It can be easy to be influenced by their reactions, but there is never a set type. No matter how 'traditional' your normal feelings should be in any situation, it doesnt have to be that way. For example, if someone is harassing me, and has been for quite some time, for lack of forgiveness, i can choose to be angry with them. Or i can take my current approach which is to stay calm and back away as often as possible. It is so difficult for me to go against the norm, but it is possible. You can completely control your reactions and feelings in any situation, but that does not mean it is easy.

In other current events, my birthday is in two weeks. I am so excited, as i always am for the one day i can be conceited out of the entire year. I hope to create a gigantic blog post of the entire day, and how amazing it was. The next day after, thanksgiving, me and my parents will be driving in the early morning to front royal, virginia to stay with my sister's future hubby's family. The friday after that, i will drive to dc to see the blakely's!!

There is always, always something to look forward to.

What's in your future? How will you choose to react?

much love,

j.

Day 3: November 8th

Day 2: November 7th

utter coach-ness

my life in pink

The exclusive month-long series of daily photos to capture a specific characteristic well known in my lifestyle.

(sounds professional huh)


I have decided to have a 30 day long series daily photos to express my love for my favorite color.


This will not interfere with my other blog posts, but will be just an addition to my blog posts.





one month of pink





Day 1: November 6th





ready for this explosion of pink?


much love,


j.

absolutely adorable

not exactly birthday related...

just some really cute things i like.

toaster charm



all juicy charms ever



yum yum yummm



im in love with these


p.s. this is mainly for louisa :)



much love,


j.