now

there are a million times a day where i think of things i wish i had.

now, dont confuse this with not being grateful, because i am incredibly grateful for everything i have.

but, i have a hard time with waiting.

i dont want to say anything specific, but i can think of a ton of things i want NOW.

mostly love.

but, i want it in the right place at the right time.

which is obviously NOT right now.

i dont really speak of it much because its something that can annoy, frustrate and make others uncomfortable.

its not exactly table conversation.

unfortunately,

it hurts to wait for what you want.

but that makes it even more worth it.

now, i will put those thoughts aside and dance the night away with kendra.

love,

j.

sunrise

I have been going through a lot lately. I feel even weird admitting it, because i have learned that sometimes its easier to keep to myself then telling everyone whats going on.

I am a deep sleeper and i never wake up in the middle of the night. But, i woke up this morning around 6. In my surprise i was gifted with one glorious sunset. It was absolutely incredibly.

There was a reason i woke up. I was supposed to see that.

I believe that many of life's answers come through earths beauty.

Seeing that fantastic and vibrant sunrise made me realize that

i am loved

i am doing the right thing

and i will be okay.

much love,

j.

one

throughout my life, it seems like so many people go, and barely any stay,

i adore and love those who are there.

once i fix one problem in my life, another occurs.

i'll get through it like i always do.

but there are some things i hope i get out of it,

which i do not really want everyone to know.

right now, all i need to do, is focus on school. and slowly and surely,

my life will turn out to be the best.

here we go........