So i got this problem....

[misdemeanor: I have no intent to bring down your spirit or complain in this post]

There's obviously something wrong with me, i'll get it out there. The question is, what is that exact problem? Here are some of my symptoms:

-easily get dizzy/faint when doing exercise (even if it's a little)

-gets extremely sick feeling after almost everytime eating

-feel weak, almost always tired

-frequent stomach aches

(I'm a picky eater, but i've always been)

It's been happening long enough that i know it's not mono, there's no chance i'm pregnant and i haven't done anything different in my eating habits (besides eating healthier, which i doubt is the problem)

So, my trainer believes i have hypoglycemia, and so do i. The thing is, sometimes glucose tabs or other things don't work, and because of that i'm a bit iffy.

The point of me telling you all this, is to let you know, that sometimes life isn't just right. We will always face challenges and hardships. Some big, some small, some short, some long. I hope right now, this will soon go away. If it doesn't, i'll eventually be okay, because it could always be worse.

I've had many breakdown moments in my lifetime. Many days spent thinking why me? why this? why now? but one thing has always stayed constant. I've moved on. My problems have eventually gone away, or i've learned to deal with them. It is extremely important, to always have a hopeful attitude. Challenges happen to everyone, and it is always, always possible to get through them. God does not put things in our way that we cannot handle.

If you are currently struggling with something, believe me, you can always get help. I find serenity in long naps, my favorite songs, visits with friends, kid movies, inspiring stories of amazing people, and almost everything i like. If you think you are too caught up in unhappy thoughts, that can be fixed. Positivity is always possible. I've had many challenges in my early teens, and from all those hardships i thought would never end, i learned the necessary skill of positivity. I gained confidence in doing things i liked and by surrounding myself in things that made me happy.

I have much faith in you, friend.

immeasurable love,

Jeanette.

For My Friends

I can't begin to express how i feel about you. I've been sitting here for around thirty minutes trying to put my feelings into words. I found some, and they're a bit choppy, but they provide the perfect definiton of your friendship to me. Here i go.

Human connections are amazing. They're the only thing i need. I happen to have some of the best. Friendship, love, family. i have the complete support system. Don't get me wrong, i need it. I need you. Everyone needs someone. I'm extremely blessed to have some of the best people in my life. I have so many complex friends. They're amazing in countless ways. They uplift me and help me continue in difficult times. They say the right things at the right time. They're honest to me when i'm not honest with myself. I need other perspectives, i need other opinions and views.

I have so much gratitude for the friendship you've given me. I strive everyday to be a faithful, loving friend. I absolutely adore all of you. I'll never be able to thank you enough.

Jeanette.

"When words are both true and kind, they can change the world."-Ghandi

Especially my world.

License!

I just got my license yesterday. It's a bit late for me, considering i've been seventeen for a couple months and you're supposed to get it at 16. I took a long time to convince myself to take driver's ed, because i was almost in a fatal crash freshman year, and because of the trama i went through i was extremely afraid of driving. I admit, i completely regret waiting to get it. But, now since i got it, nothing's stopping me!

The Impact of Gratitude

I'm one of those people that remember the little things. The little details are the ones that make the biggest difference to me. The way someone smiles at me, or the small note they pass. I feel like those kind of actions are the ones that show who people really are. They show that they genuinely care. I have so much gratitude for all those people in my life who have made it a better place. Those people who spend their time making me feel better, making me feel more inspired to do what i do. I don't have much of a memory, but i do remember almost every small action people have shown to me, the big ones too. The ones that have made the largest impact in my life are the actions that took place at the exact right time, the time i needed it most and also the times that completely surprised me. As for everything i feel, i want to give it back. I strive to be compassionate and i hope that it makes a difference, in small ways or big. Live life abundantly.

Acceptance.

Acceptance is sometimes a hard thing to...accept. For example, i've already accepted that im pale, short, picky, obsessive over some things, am not perfect, like some weird stuff, and make mistakes. But guess what, because i've accepted it, all those possibly bad characteristics aren't so bad anymore.
On the more positive side, i've accepted that i'm acceptive, love human beings, will always stand out, can make a difference, and strive everyday to do my best.
Acceptance is mainly important on your view of other people. The easiest way to accept others and the way they are, is through an open mind. Accept that they aren't exactly like you. They don't have to agree with you on everything. They don't look like you and definitely have a different past then you. I believe it is possible for anyone to get along with anyone. It's all through the power of acceptance. You can either choose to be annoyed by certain things, or choose to love them. Acceptance is a choice. A critical choice that'll completely alter and change your life everyday.

My favorite thing in life are the people in it. I could never imagine a life alone from society. Everyone is made for everyone. We're here for others, and they're here for us. We're all an absolutely gigantic network. Imagine acceptance in such a large scale as the whole human race. Unfortunately, it's pretty incomprehendable. But hey, we don't have to get along with everyone, but it's important to try.

Never Underestimate Boredom

Okay, i'm not exactly bored over here. Me, my sister, mom and grandma have been baking straight for about four days. I just feel bad that i have no idea what to blog about. So, as a result i have decided to blog about right now, what i like, what's going on, all that info.

Saturday: After the terrible friday experience, i reunited with my sister and grandma saturday morning. I always love seeing them and love looking forward to all that we'll do. Me and my sister ended up talking all night. I have never felt so relieved from being deprived of our conversations for so long.
Sunday: Me and my sister ended up sight reading the whole singing portion of the christmas program at church. My mom and dad both sang in it to, but i believe they actually went to the practices. I didn't go to the rest of church at all, due to the high drama going on. (It's a bit to complicated to explain...so don't assume too much)
Monday: Baking. Sums it up in one day. Along with the first time ive slept in in forever. Good start for break.
Tuesday: Again, more baking. Also went with the family and saw The Blind Side. Everyone cried...yes, everyone. Another late night talking with my sister.

Wednesday: (today) Went out to lunch, went shopping, all the good christmas stuff. Oh and...baking. We are also currently baking too. You might receive some of the success soon.

I'll admit, all of that sounds boring when i write it down, but it's been absolutely fulfilling. I love the house filled with more people, more sounds, the smell of sweetness all over the house, the blasting of christmas music, all of it. I left out a ton of the details, but that's okay, it's mainly a 'you had to be there' thing.

Current Obsessions
Mike Posner, sugar wafers, wrapping paper designs, sister photoshoot sessions, skype, extremely obnoxious christmas music, making my hair super curly, and...

new glasses!

I love you guys and hope you have an amazing christmas :)

Perspective

Perspective is your personal view and what you see at different times. Your perspective can change, and can almost always have a different view then others. It's crazy complicated when you think about it. It's important at times, to stay strong in your perspective, in your view point and what you know is personally right.
I love all of you guys. I know that you all have amazing potential. I hope that i've never offended you with my perspective on things. From now on, i've promise myself and you, to be even more open minded. To understand where you're coming from and what you mean.
Things always come up in life, but we can almost always fix them.
Here's an amazing quote to end with.

"Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections but instantly set about remedying them- every begin the task anew"
-Saint Frances De Sales

"Today is the Last Ordinary Day"

The quote i cut out from a magazine and have taped on my bedroom door to see everytime i walk out.
To some people, ordinary can be a good thing. It can be the comfort they feel when things happen the way they're used to. It can be the the comfort of routine, of not expecting any surprises. But sometimes, when this ordinary routine goes out of sync, it's not comfortable at all.
I went to school yesterday with the knowledge that we were most likely to get out of school early for 'snow'. I say 'snow' because the weather dudes really like messing with our heads sometimes. Everyone at school really wanted snow. I had been also craving snow like no other, but today was the worst possible day. My sister and grandma would be flying it that night, and i was most paranoid for there safety. Sure enough, we got out early as it was snowing large fluffs of delicate snow. I'll admit it was absolutely gorgeous. A couple hours later i ended up at a friend's for a party. Before i left for the party, my mom told me to pack my toothbrush and stuff just incase...but i didn't think that'd be necessary, so i didn't. While i was there my dad called several times warning me that it was still snowing and Wendy (who drove me) would have to be really careful driving back. We left the party early to go hangout at another friend's house. We stayed there for a longtime, and it got to the point that i wouldn't be going home that night. I was stuck. I was stuck worrying about the safety of my family and stuck with the discomfort that i didn't have what i needed. I'm one of those people who always have extras of everything and makes sure to plan ahead to never forget stuff on trips. So this for me, was highly uncomfortable. We spent the night watching movies, baking, facebooking, youtubing and talking. Around one we decided to sleep. The fire was on so i got as close to it as possible to get warm...but it got turned off for safety reasons. So i was stuck on the floor with a thin blanket that had holes in it, and a thin pillow (i'm a puffy pillow person). I was okay considering the situation and understood that i couldn't get what i wanted and the situation could've also been much worse. I was still left with the unsurity of the safely of my family, we couldn't contact my sister and grandma and so i was also left with that concern. So i eventually fell asleep. I probably woke up every 10 minutes the whole night. I was extremely freezing and i can't sleep when i'm cold. I was still in my day clothes (the really tight uncomfortable jeans to sleep in) and makeup.
I know that i can't always get what i want in situations. I know that it can always be alot worse. i didn't keep my positivity much at the time, but now since i reflect i realize all the good. I was stuck in a safe home, with close friends, i had food and the important essentials.
My grandma and sister didn't come last night. But they will be here in an hour. From what i've heard they're not too happy about the being stuck at the airport thing. I understand. I'm still glad they're okay and that i'll still see them soon. Once they get here, and we're all together, bring on the snow.
I wish you guys a good, safe holiday break and with the knowledge that today, might be the last ordinary day. But don't get me wrong, that's not always a bad thing.

My Deep Connections to Grocery Stores & Why.

Today, while grocery shopping at 8:30 with my dad, I was
in awe as usual with all the different items. It's insane to try to comprehend it all. I wonder how much the total cost of it all is?
Then, i made up this quote. (no, its not too deep)
"There are many different items at harris teeter, different smells, tastes, labels, containers, sizes, colors, but in the end they all come from the same grocery store" Although this isn't too indepth, there's definitely a deeper meaning. If you put it the aspect of people, it makes much sense. This reminds me of analogies. My dad decided to start calling all of my classes piglets and would ask me questions like, "are all your piglets healthy today? Did you remember to feed them? What about the sick one? [chemistry]" I guess he started doing that so i'd take school more seriously (like i was'nt...)

In conclusion, here's an abbreviated list of some of my favorite things to get at harris teeter: San Pellegrino, french baguet, babybel cheese (original), orangina, starbucks hot chocolate icecream, pomegranates, pears, rasberries, lemons, bell peppers, sugar cookies, total xtra care gum, horizon organic chocolate milk, smart water, mott's fruit snacks, and i could keep going forever.
I have a thing with food stores. For your convenience here are some i approve of:
whole foods
southern seasons
harris teeter
trader joe's (its a love-hate relationship, i only like SOME things)

NOT:
food lion
wegman's (haha)

Hungry? Me too.

Love you guys.

There's Something Missing...

I've previously lived thirteen hardy snow years in Wisconsin, where i mistakingly took snow for granted. It's currently extremely cold here...but not as cold as it could be. There's definitely something missing to my christmas season. I probably want a white christmas more than anything. If it only snows on christmas i'll be happy but dispite global warming i'd love some snow-filled real winter days.

This picture was taken last year, when it did snow. So, let's hope there's a picture just like this in a couple days. Besides the ripped jeans and weirdly textured purple space jacket.