Complexity

Right now i feel:

Entangled

Anemic

Perplexed

Idle

Malnutritioned

I want to feel more:

Amorous

Beneficent

Serene

Ecstatic

Mirthful

(I love thesaurus.reference.com)

Felicity

Snow. Belize. Puzzles. Posner. Pibb. Fog. Zipper Pulls. Blankets. Kashi. Polo Socks. Gum. Youtube. Back scratches. Pigs. Brown Corduroy. Pizza. San Diego. Pookie. Three. Starbucks. Thumbs. Glasses. Vans. Belly Buttons. Pink. Deprived. Twitter. What about bob. Volcom. Down. Andes. 5 years. Doorstoppers. Avatar. Wind. Fondue. Cornfield. 10 o clock. Peace out.

(Hey, maybe this doesn't make any sense...)

There's this friend.

This is Andrew Blakely. We're besties. He's pretty awesome and we get along entirely. I went to visit him on friday in northern virginia (they got a ton of snow). We we're pretty much doing something all the time (from eating, going to a movie or really far away mall) I'd never been up there before and it was alot better than i expected (not saying what i expected was bad!) His family is definitely different then mine (not even close to a bad thing!) There was always noise and kids doing something, but i loved it. I felt like i fit in right away. Every single kid (there were 10) had definite personalities. Time went by too fast, like anything fun. It was a really good weekend although it would've been nice to stay longer.
Thanks Blakely family for everything :)

j.

A Few of My Favorite Words...

Voluminous

Gertrude

Bottega Veneta

Olive

Some more...

Fetus [sorry, not putting a picture up of that...]

Attitudy [i made this one up]

Chanel

Van Cleef and Arpels

Dump

Sharpie

Bublé

The Perfect Escape

[in english we were asked to write about our perfect destination, this is mine]




A little house alone in the landscape of Australia. There is no noise outside except the soft blowing of the wind. The house is one level, filled with natural light beaming from the sheer covered windows. The house is the perfect temperature. There is no stress or anything that will interfere with time. Every couch, bed and chair are perfectly plump-enough to fit you in just the right way. The house gives off a faint smell of flowers and clean linen. There is fresh fruit on the kitchen table, each bite a taste of the right amount of natural sweetness. The days are filled with leisure, but with no amount of exhaustion or dullness. Everything is just right, no dust visible, nothing out of place. Everything content and wholesome.

I wish i could always be there...


j.

On My Mind

Here are some of my recent thoughts, a bit random, but it's okay.

-Never give up on anyone, including yourself. If you have hope in them, they'll have hope in themselves and amazing things will happen.

- Eyesight is amazing. I could never imagine being blind [or deaf!]

-My favorite thing: being in the car completely alone, blasting music (i mean blasting), driving moderately fast and singing to every song. Helps me keep my head straight.

-It's time to except yourself for who you are (or, me for who i am). You must stop thinking unrealisticly and realize that this is what you got, and it's the best thing ever.

-I really love watching people become successful. It's an amazing transformation.

-Life is work. hard work. You can't get anywhere without going through rough patches. (After they're over i dont mind the rough patches, I learn so much from them)

-Life is precious. You only live but once.

-I have so much love for those in Haiti. I doubt anything will ever happen like that to me in my lifetime, and by that, i find it mandatory to help out in any way i can (especially prayer).

-I just realized i've just started liking foods i haven't before in my life: rasberries, chocolate icecream and salmon. Now, they're close to my favorite. yumm

-This song gets stuck in my head atleast 10 times a day. (good stuff)

-I'm trying to save up for a nice camera. (I feel like if i buy it with my own money it'll mean more to me) I'm serious about the photographer thing...

-I really do like pink alot. I don't even choose to consciously, it's somehow habitual...

-The stars on my ceiling (plastic ones) only shine for about 5 minutes every night before they're done. Maybe I should take off my roof and get the real thing...they'll be there all night.

-I'm okay with the fact that i'm one of the few teenage bloggers. I think about that everytime i write a post.

-Apparently doing puzzles is a grandma thing...guess i'm older than i thought.

-I'm really grateful for absolutely everything i have. No one will ever have all they want, but you eventually got to get over that.

-I think its possible for everyone to get along. The reason we don't get along with everyone is because we choose to. It's all a decision. They may have done certain things to effect our view, but forgiveness and apologizing is always possible. You can either choose for certain things people do to annoy you, or choose to love them.

-I've been hungry almost all the time lately, maybe im growing...(please!)

-I really really love SNL. They have the best sense of humor. (If you want to look up past episodes, most of them are on Hulu.)

-I'm undoubtingly going to be a Fashion Designer. Someone's gotta save this world. [I absolutely hate seeing ugly clothes...it bothers me because it's just a waste of materials and eyesight]

-I'm determined. For what? I'm not sure...but i feel like something's coming up really soon.

I'm in love with this picture, and this photographer.(Find Black and White photography here)

It feels so good to ramble sometimes.

j.

20 things about me.

#1. I like bows. Especially pink ones.

#2. I'm an extremely picky eater. I don't like onions, tomatoes, grapefruit, oatmeal, fritos, swiss cheese, lima beans, dark chocolate, any kind of fruit pie, margarita pizza, and the list goes on...

but i do love these:

#3. I'm always thinking of my future. I've got many career ideas...Fashion Designer, Party coordinator, Surgeon & Photographer (if not career, so completely a hobby) But most definitely a Mom.

#4. He's my favorite.

#5. I'm really into routines. I do the same things in the same order every morning to get ready for the day and everynight before i go to bed. It keeps me organized if the rest of my day isn't.

#6. I'm extremely into designs, especially fashion wise. Nothing catches my attention as well as...

#7. I know I'm seventeen and all, but i would love to own absolutely everything playmobil. Especially this.

#8. Quotes are my inspiration. (quotables)

#9. I've always wanted to go to Australia. (along with Africa, Belize, New Zealand, Scotland, The United Kingdom, and everywhere else in the world) wanna come?

#10. I love Michael Buble, and i promise you will too. His voice is extremely unique, and oh so perfect.

#11. I have always been amazed with snowflakes. I embrace their originality and complexity.

#12. I barely read books for fun. I just can't quite find the ones that will keep me satisfied. When i do find a good read, it's rare...but their incredible.

#13. I don't have any habits like cracking my knuckles, but i do love to....

smile. (and peel potatoes)

#14. I have a thing for piglets. (I'm eventually getting a teacup pig like the one below; theyre massively tiny)

#15. I'm goofy.

#16. I have favorite websites.

Pandora.

Facebook.

Youtube.

Awkwardfamilyphotos.

jigzone.

failblog.

cracked.

#17. I only use cottonelle. (that's how picky i am)

#18. Nature always amazes me. Words can never describe.

#19. I make it a mandatory habit of mine to always be positive. It makes everything better.

#20. I love you. and Tiffany's.

I Choose...

-to fall in love with everything

-to eat healthy

-right over wrong

-to take the stairs

-summer over winter

-you before me

-to look forward to the future

-to be myself

-to make the best out of every situation

-to never give up

-to take care of myself

-to try not to forget

-to sleep in

What do you Choose?

Sunshine

"Happiness is not having what you want. It is wanting what you have"

Just Listen.

At This Moment

Many things come unexpectantly. They leave us unplanned and unprepared. They can leave us upset or confused. We can make plans for our future all we want, but there's no guarantee they're certain. But that's okay, we can always adjust.

I'm a huge planner. I might in fact make use out of it and make it a profession, we'll see. I had a bunch of plans this weekend, one's i liked and one's i dreaded (SAT class...oh ick). They all fell apart. Nothing came through [blame the snow]. Although i've had an over relaxed day, i can already tell i needed it.

I decided to make cookies. I don't need cookies and shouldn't eat them anyways. While they were fresh out of the oven, i thought of the perfect plan. I love surprising people, and i couldn't really go anywhere. So i gave them to my neighbors. I tell you, the reactions on their faces we're so much better than staying cooped up and eating them alone. It was a chilly process (although they were close) but it was worth it.

Here's some documentation of today.

frigid.

Our truest life is when we are in our dreams awake. -Henry David Thoreau