whenever i can't sleep, i blog. i will most likely be blogging nightly.i have always admired those who put aside all of their desires and focus them utterly to those souls in need.
i have always aspired to be completely selfless, but it is proving very difficult.
before any other necessity, i try and attempt to put others before anything. i always want to be around others, to talk with them and to associate myself with them.
i want to leave the world knowing that i was a positive impact.
for the first time in my life, i was at an all time low last night. the lowest amount of self esteem i have ever been. it only lasted for about 10 minutes. but it was dreadful.
in those few minutes i realized so many different things. the little things that keep me going, knowing that the future will always be better. i thought of those i loved, what i loved and the exceptionally lucky life ive had.
everyone has purpose. everyone deserves to be loved. everyone deserves equality and respect.
and i will make that my number one goal.
i am not a fan of new years resolutions and i dont usually make them. i respect those who want to make a positive impact in their lives, and its always good to change, but i dont think that specific date of a new year should be when we decide to change. we should always desire to grow.
i have made a new life goal, that has happened to come to existence now.
i want to love everyone.
in every single way possible. including how i think of them in my head.
hopefully, i will become whom i admire.
a selfless individual
much love,
j.
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