An Inspiration

The most inspiring love story.

{Young Victoria}

Baby!

just cause i'm in a craving-cute mood.

Remmy.

Streptococcal pharyngitis, conquering my fear & pink pills.

{my meds}


{the aftermath}

i woke up sick this morning (my tonsils were swollen). i spent the whole day sleeping. my mom took me to the walk in clinic to see what was up. (i thought it was a kidney infection) so, they made me pee in a cup, and that wasnt what it was. then, they made me take a blood test. needles, especially ones that take blood are one of my biggest fears. my body cant handle it well and i faint. i told myself i could get through this, and i did. i did it! i conquered my fear.

although im extremely weak and uncomfortable, i feel like i can defy anything.
including this illness.

sick.

{eating oranges on a hello kitty plate and watching cars for the billionth time}

too many harsh words

see those splotches? you probably think their bruises. they're not. it's a really weird and rare form my skin heals itself. Wherever i've had bruises or impact injuries before, these weird skin splotches come up a couple months/years later. I went to the doctor previously for them, and they gave me a cream for it. they were getting better until i was told i was over-using them and it actually made my skin super thin. which made them more obvious. [they're also on my hand. and ankle.]

it's spring time. which means skirts and shorts weather. i was told by some people that they werent noticeable until i pointed them out. But one day, i think about 8 people noticed. "are those bruises!?" i know theyre innocent questions, but they hurt. i'm super insecure about this, and when people point out my insecurites its just a reminder of how imperfect i am.

I will always find something i don't like about myself. and i think in that attitude, im not alone (unfortunately)

Last night (when this picture was taken) i was in the shower. i was looking down at my legs. and i started crying. and whenever i think of one negative thing about myself, the rest of them come up in my mind. it was a harsh, personal moment of tough reflection.
i've decided i should stop thinking about myself in a bad way. you might be thinking "why would she do that!? she has lots to fix...." well everybody does. everybody has imperfections and reasons for others to critique them in a negative way. but i believe that if i start thinking more positively about others, i'll think more positively about myself. i am stuck with who i am. i will always be short. i will always have curly hair. i will always have brown eyes. i will always be me. and it's time to accept that.

and to celebrate me.

no matter how imperfect, cranky, splotchy {and on and on} i am.

because i'm stuck with this forever.

and it's okay.

Today, It's okay

I'm not a perfect blogger, or a perfect person.
So here's my random post, as they all here.
and here's how i feel right now.



my phone battery probably lasts about five hours, which is extremely pitiful and a bit inconvenient.

I still like pink.

my fish blows bubbles. and hides under them.


My hair has been annoying me a lot lately. It's curly and i have to do alot to make it look okay everyday. If it was straight, it'd be so much easier. I'd straighten it everyday but i dont have time.

Just Because

{owen with some avacado}
Yesterday me and Kendra visited the Mudrick's and Empey's, just because. They both are amazing families with amazing kids. It was so rewarding to help them out for a little while, because they deserve it. They're such great examples to us. (thanks for letting us invade!)

Gucci Mane Jr.

Jeanette 360°

{one of those random posts full of disconnected, choppy thoughts}

As i was reading the May issue of teen vogue yesterday, i came across my horoscope for this month. It said, "Your usual and unbound optimism and curiosity have been slightly dampened lately. but the world's your oyster this month, so get out and try something new."

Something new? I have no idea what to do that's new. It must be realistic, able and rewarding.
I'm pretty happy with my life right now. I like the organization and simularity i have each day, and i'm content with that. But, that's not stopping me from my "something new" that i should try, whatever it may be.

Here's a simplified list of what's making me happy. {definitely not all of it}
-My nerdy 'secret'
- Cars, the movie. (i cant talk about it enough)
-Cheddar and sour cream ruffles with french onion dip
-Andrew Blakely
-running on the tread to all the right moves by onerepublic, over and over again.
-Spring and its color.
-the fact that i finally understand my phone and love it!
-you.
-my obsession with the 1950's


I think in order to expand my 'optimism and curiousity' i should become
more compassionate
more selfless
more humble
more bold
more proud
more patient
more grateful
more positive
more adventerous
more profound

i should expand all my capabilities and become the more improved, better Jeanette. I'm not new, but i say new can be an upgrade too.


I love you

Jeanette

Stumped.

If you're looking for unecessary frustration, get the blackberry storm.
I've never been technologically stumped, but this one got me.

Singularity

Snap fitness.
6 treadmills.
me and 5 other middle-aged men.
running at the same speed.

i really regret not recording it for youtube.

Dirty Little Secret

I've only made my bed about 3 times in the past 4 years.

That's okay, right?

Some eggs & a pedicure.

Since it's finally sandal weather, i was in desperate need.
I went today with Kendra to natural nails (its new!) at chapel hill north.

My dad got me this teacup full of chocolate eggs for easter (although i got in monday) from Chocolaterie Stam's. (yum)

This week for me is PACKED. with good and bad.
wish me luck!

j.

Planes

I really don't like planes. For this spring break i had to be on one four times. which is eight times going up and landing. i hate that feeling of defying gravity (in that way) But on my first way up, after pulling through it, i saw this:

and at that exact moment, this song came up on my ipod.

Good moment.

After hard times, there is always a moment when you realize it's all over and begin to see the beauty.