The most beautiful sea hasn't been crossed yet.
The most beautiful child hasn't grown up yet.
The most beautiful days we haven't seen yet.
And the most beautiful words I wanted to tell you...
I haven't said yet.
-Nazim Hikmet
Friday, April 22, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
portrayed
Your life is portrayed by those all other than yourself. They view your actions and words, without knowing your thoughts. You may act a certain way that contradicts your intent or thoughts, but others dont see that. They see and assume what you think is what you do.
I cant just side with one side saying that you should always give people the benefit of the doubt. Although that is true you cant let people just toss you around. Stand your ground. If someone is using you and treating you unfairly, dont just let it happen. Approach it in the right way. Even though the heat of the moment definitely makes it difficult to act calmly. There have been times where the only way id know id make an impact to cause change was by acting very feircly.
1. be fair
2. dont always think of yourself
3. be open minded
4. try to approach situations in a appropriate manner
5. stand up for yourself
6. stay to your beliefs no matter what.
never let others use you,
but dont ever ruin a good relationship.
j.
I cant just side with one side saying that you should always give people the benefit of the doubt. Although that is true you cant let people just toss you around. Stand your ground. If someone is using you and treating you unfairly, dont just let it happen. Approach it in the right way. Even though the heat of the moment definitely makes it difficult to act calmly. There have been times where the only way id know id make an impact to cause change was by acting very feircly.
1. be fair
2. dont always think of yourself
3. be open minded
4. try to approach situations in a appropriate manner
5. stand up for yourself
6. stay to your beliefs no matter what.
never let others use you,
but dont ever ruin a good relationship.
j.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
feeling beefy
The unbudging grudge.
If i think about my past, many unforgivable instances have happened.
Things that bring up anger, selft doubt, confusion and even hatred.
Its hard to let go of things that people have done that offend you.
Its easy to justify why you dont need to ever forgive. but you do.
Forgive.
You never know someones true intent for doing what they did.
You never know what they have been through or experienced to get them at that point.
You never know how badly you couldve hurt someone even if it didnt seem that bad to you.
Change your perspective. and forgive.
give them the benefit of the doubt and start over.
It wont be easy. It has taken me about two years to get over something that was completely ridiculous.
At many times i feel like the person hasnt deserved their justice.
But they will. leave that out of your hands.
even if their life is easier than yours in the long run, the experience may have benefitted you over time in a way you cant even realized.
it many have made you stronger, tougher and more experienced to handle the harshness of the world.
although it may be unfair, frustrating, ridiculous, forgive.
the person still hasnt apologized and maybe its because they havent realized what they did.
the day, if it ever happens, that they forgive will be amazing closure.
and a huge burden for possibly both will be lifted.
if you have done something to someone, you think about it often but believe theyve gotten over it, it doesnt matter.
apologize to them. maybe you dont have to say anything, but show in your actions.
if you think about it, youd want someone to apologized for something they did to you,
so apologize to someone you need to.
even if its difficult.
for now, ill pretend that everythings okay and it never happened.
i've frogiven them and thats all i can do.
I cant force them to do anything at all.
do your part and forgive and apologize.
life is too short to waste any human relationships.
any.
j
If i think about my past, many unforgivable instances have happened.
Things that bring up anger, selft doubt, confusion and even hatred.
Its hard to let go of things that people have done that offend you.
Its easy to justify why you dont need to ever forgive. but you do.
Forgive.
You never know someones true intent for doing what they did.
You never know what they have been through or experienced to get them at that point.
You never know how badly you couldve hurt someone even if it didnt seem that bad to you.
Change your perspective. and forgive.
give them the benefit of the doubt and start over.
It wont be easy. It has taken me about two years to get over something that was completely ridiculous.
At many times i feel like the person hasnt deserved their justice.
But they will. leave that out of your hands.
even if their life is easier than yours in the long run, the experience may have benefitted you over time in a way you cant even realized.
it many have made you stronger, tougher and more experienced to handle the harshness of the world.
although it may be unfair, frustrating, ridiculous, forgive.
the person still hasnt apologized and maybe its because they havent realized what they did.
the day, if it ever happens, that they forgive will be amazing closure.
and a huge burden for possibly both will be lifted.
if you have done something to someone, you think about it often but believe theyve gotten over it, it doesnt matter.
apologize to them. maybe you dont have to say anything, but show in your actions.
if you think about it, youd want someone to apologized for something they did to you,
so apologize to someone you need to.
even if its difficult.
for now, ill pretend that everythings okay and it never happened.
i've frogiven them and thats all i can do.
I cant force them to do anything at all.
do your part and forgive and apologize.
life is too short to waste any human relationships.
any.
j
Saturday, April 16, 2011
the place in my mind
There is a place in my mind where the dead ones go.
my friends, family members, famous people and acquaintances.
mingling forever and backing me up.
standing there for me when i'm alone at night.
that solid foundation when nobody understands.
my grandma.
my friend's little brother
the victims of genocides
my favorite actor
that car crash victim
the unknown soldier
the cousins i never met
that one stranger nobody knew
all of them in the same place.
the perfect place.
waiting for me patiently till im home again.
smiling. loving. surrounding. encouraging. cheering
wanting nothing but the best because they finally landed in the place of perfection.
the place where it all makes sense.
and they knew that they're lives were worth it.
and they know that my life is worth it. yours is too.
they never want to be forgotten, but never want to be mourned.
they've learned that the little things matter.
and that others are above everything.
and that every life is perfect and purposeful.
no matter how long it lasts.
and because of that expiring time,
every moment counts.
every smile. every person to show love to.
every thought in your head.
every decision made.
because every life has magnificent purpose. especially yours.
live for them and live for yourself.
live for the moment and live for the end.
j.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
a different eye
long time no see.
numerous revelations have come to me since i last posted. i am scrambling in my head of the way i should organize this post to have it make sense to you. let's do themes.
friends.
they are the favorites. i constantly want to be with all my friends. they are preference. the relationships created, and sustained are the most enriching influences in my life. when it comes to my friends, age never stops me. enjoying life with other people, is so much better than being alone.
emotions.
i can be happy almost all the time. i constantly surround myself with people and events. the hardest times for me lately have been the minutes before i fall asleep. alone in the darkness and silence of my room, i feel alone. i feel like i do know whats missing and if that was back, it would be fixed, but its possible that that might not be it, so for now, hope.
sidenote.
you know in movies when nothing interesting happens for a long period of time, so instead of having a huge boring part of the movie they just place the words one year later (or whatever years) to skip to the good part? my life is at that place. the place that is too boring to be worth showing. prove me wrong, but at those silent, dark moments at the end of each day. thats how i feel.
music.
my favorites lately have been exactly exactly how i feel.
behold:
the permanent rain by the dangerous summer
untouchable by taylor swift
swallowed in the sea by coldplay
i constantly think throughout the day of what things i could blog about, and they sound absolutely amazing in my head, until i finally get the chance and they're all gone.
my life in summary:
i live a life full of amazing opportunites, surrounded by the best people, and a really good attitude. but no matter what situation you are in,
you will feel sad sometimes.
you will feel not good enough.
you will feel lost.
you will feel so utterly alone.
and this is OK. but you must remind yourself that all this is not true. it is only perspective. be in remorse for a short time, then quickly get up, brush yourself off, and embrace your life.
it is your life. yours. make it yours. embrace it and take every good opportunity that comes to you.
regaining your senses.
nature is the absolute perfect place to regain sanity. tonight while i was taking out the trash it was uncomfortably cold but i took 2 minutes to stare up at the stars and realize that the world is beautiful and i should take every chance i can to make it the fullest,richest experience.
simple advice.
pick a flower.
take a hike.
make a cake.
walk with a friend.
drive alone with your favorite songs.
look up at the stars.
wear perfume.
surround yourself with your favorites.
hug more.
forgive.
love.
and, harden your shell.
and let no one bring down your powerful self.
much love,
j.
numerous revelations have come to me since i last posted. i am scrambling in my head of the way i should organize this post to have it make sense to you. let's do themes.
friends.
they are the favorites. i constantly want to be with all my friends. they are preference. the relationships created, and sustained are the most enriching influences in my life. when it comes to my friends, age never stops me. enjoying life with other people, is so much better than being alone.
emotions.
i can be happy almost all the time. i constantly surround myself with people and events. the hardest times for me lately have been the minutes before i fall asleep. alone in the darkness and silence of my room, i feel alone. i feel like i do know whats missing and if that was back, it would be fixed, but its possible that that might not be it, so for now, hope.
sidenote.
you know in movies when nothing interesting happens for a long period of time, so instead of having a huge boring part of the movie they just place the words one year later (or whatever years) to skip to the good part? my life is at that place. the place that is too boring to be worth showing. prove me wrong, but at those silent, dark moments at the end of each day. thats how i feel.
music.
my favorites lately have been exactly exactly how i feel.
behold:
the permanent rain by the dangerous summer
untouchable by taylor swift
swallowed in the sea by coldplay
i constantly think throughout the day of what things i could blog about, and they sound absolutely amazing in my head, until i finally get the chance and they're all gone.
my life in summary:
i live a life full of amazing opportunites, surrounded by the best people, and a really good attitude. but no matter what situation you are in,
you will feel sad sometimes.
you will feel not good enough.
you will feel lost.
you will feel so utterly alone.
and this is OK. but you must remind yourself that all this is not true. it is only perspective. be in remorse for a short time, then quickly get up, brush yourself off, and embrace your life.
it is your life. yours. make it yours. embrace it and take every good opportunity that comes to you.
regaining your senses.
nature is the absolute perfect place to regain sanity. tonight while i was taking out the trash it was uncomfortably cold but i took 2 minutes to stare up at the stars and realize that the world is beautiful and i should take every chance i can to make it the fullest,richest experience.
simple advice.
pick a flower.
take a hike.
make a cake.
walk with a friend.
drive alone with your favorite songs.
look up at the stars.
wear perfume.
surround yourself with your favorites.
hug more.
forgive.
love.
and, harden your shell.
and let no one bring down your powerful self.
much love,
j.
Monday, February 7, 2011
my best makeup recommendations
having been wearing makeup for quite awhile, i have finally found the best of the best. & i have chosen to share it all with you!
If youre looking for a compact, chanel is el perfecto. i absolutely love mine, its great for touch ups although it does smell like baby powder.
yves saint laurent under eye concealer. perfect for days where you get little sleep.
honestly, THIS is the best makeup item i have. you put it on before you put on makeup and it keeps your face even and not shiny all day.
whats YOUR favorite??
much love,
j.
one week late
i wrote this post about a week ago in math class. life is a little different now, definitely better though.
here we goooo
There are always going to be hard times in life. The points in life where you realize after awhile youve been doing nothing and your bad habits have come out. this just happened to me. ill blame most of it on the fact that ive been really sick for awhile. when youre at this low point, there becomes an ultimatum. you can choose to continue this, or bring yourself up. ive chosen to bring myself up. its a bit difficult but i know life will become interesting and positive again. i believe it shows who you are and how important life is for you by what you do in these times of struggle.
and now, as of currently,
life is amazing. because im embracing every moment and every person.
much love,
j.
Friday, January 28, 2011
sunshine
Tonight as i was taking my sweet time getting ready for bed i sung one of my favorite songs over and over.
you are my sunshine my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey
youll never know dear how much i love you
please dont take my sunshine away
these lyrics like almost everything else remind me of my past.
i am currently on pause and i cant wait for someone to press play.
there are so many times in my life and yours that we want things in the past that are not in the present. especially something that made you so incredibly happy that you could never dream of anything more perfect than that.
Oo i hate bringing this up but valentines day is coming up. people either love it or hate it. this year i wont be a fan.
i am spending that day with my bestest girl friends. they are who i have been surrounding myself with the past couple of months and they are absolutely amazing. wow.
my eyes just watered up. life is so different for me then its ever been and there are so many things that arent here that would make like much more enjoyable and sweet. but i live the best life i could ask for, especially the people in it.
to my four girls.
kendra: thanks for keeping life unorganized and chaotic. no one is as hilarious and ridiculous as you. you have no idea how much your company has made my life better.
sara: i feel like ive been friends with you forever. you are the best venter and ventee. im so grateful for someone who always understands me even if i make no sense at all.
christina: you are my hug boo. i absolutely love laughing through everything with you. you always amaze me in how you handle situations in the best way. you are so strong.
ashley: i love ho we share so many of the same oppinions. never a dull moment with you. you are my only constant friend since 8th grade and i never doubt why.
to you:
i am silently cheering you on every single day. things happen for a reason and i trust it completely. ready. set. go.
shine on,
jeanette
you are my sunshine my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey
youll never know dear how much i love you
please dont take my sunshine away
these lyrics like almost everything else remind me of my past.
i am currently on pause and i cant wait for someone to press play.
there are so many times in my life and yours that we want things in the past that are not in the present. especially something that made you so incredibly happy that you could never dream of anything more perfect than that.
Oo i hate bringing this up but valentines day is coming up. people either love it or hate it. this year i wont be a fan.
i am spending that day with my bestest girl friends. they are who i have been surrounding myself with the past couple of months and they are absolutely amazing. wow.
my eyes just watered up. life is so different for me then its ever been and there are so many things that arent here that would make like much more enjoyable and sweet. but i live the best life i could ask for, especially the people in it.
to my four girls.
kendra: thanks for keeping life unorganized and chaotic. no one is as hilarious and ridiculous as you. you have no idea how much your company has made my life better.
sara: i feel like ive been friends with you forever. you are the best venter and ventee. im so grateful for someone who always understands me even if i make no sense at all.
christina: you are my hug boo. i absolutely love laughing through everything with you. you always amaze me in how you handle situations in the best way. you are so strong.
ashley: i love ho we share so many of the same oppinions. never a dull moment with you. you are my only constant friend since 8th grade and i never doubt why.
to you:
i am silently cheering you on every single day. things happen for a reason and i trust it completely. ready. set. go.
shine on,
jeanette
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Conquering struggles on your own
{yayyy its us sledding!}
There will constantly be struggles in your life. big or small. but, it is absolutely horrible when you are all alone (maybe not physically) and have no one to talk to about what's going on. and believe me, it happens to everyone.
before i forget, please forgive me for my sparse blogging. life has been intense (probably obvious by what im blogging about)
the easiest ways to conquer struggles.
#1. distraction.
surround yourself with people unrelated to your issue. if this is too impossible, move on to #2. by surrounding myself with people who are very exciting and love me, i can move on from something without focusing constantly on it.
#2. patience.
this is much more realistic, but it is very difficult. when i think about one of the most dramatically changing times in my life, it was honestly a really long time ago. But if i think about it more, and the good times before it, it seems not so far away. Patience, is distance. Distancing yourself from the past and slowly (or quickly if youre good) moving onto the future.
#3. independence.
stop relying on others, and become independent. it starts slow, and believe me i am still working on it and im not even close. i still can barely go to the mall by myself. (try that, and if you can youre way better off than me)
#4. reliance on one.
pick one person, or better yet let them pick you. pick one person whos maybe going through something similar as you and let them be your refuge. if youre going through a hard time, go to them. if you explode your emotions on everyone, itll be way tiring, especially on your relationship. dont ruin friendships when youre trying to recover.
#5 (my favorite) love.
surround yourself in what you love and who you love. choose to love. if your struggle is getting over someone, then dont try to hurry and love someone else, but love life. love the things in it and everything you have. then with all the appreciation you have for life, you wont need much else.
i love you. and i believe that you can do anything. i am way farther than i used to be yesterday along my path to conquering my struggles and its all will power, the right environment and controlling my emotions.
do it. and tell me about your success!!
much love,
j.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
neglected blog, but definitely not neglected life
I seriously cannot believe i haven't blogged in this long of time. But, i promise i will keep up my game from now on. A lot of things happened for me during winter break, and i've picked 11 pictures to sum it up.
My sister got married! Here are the siblings of the bride and groom.
B, or brandon davidson came to my sister's reception here, in chapel hill.
So did kendra, sara & henry!
It was very cold while we spent two hours taking pictures (19 degrees)
me and michael. those biggs boys are pretty awesome
me sara and kendra went to a 5 stake dance. i met will ross, who is one of the nicest kids everrr
this. is the infamous picture. nick, jackson, ian and ryan.
here are my favorites. brandon, nick, jackson, kendra & sara.
i dyed part of my hair pink, along with sara and kendra.
it snowed on christmas!!!
me & my dad made the perfect snowman
My sister got married! Here are the siblings of the bride and groom.
B, or brandon davidson came to my sister's reception here, in chapel hill.
So did kendra, sara & henry!
It was very cold while we spent two hours taking pictures (19 degrees)
me and michael. those biggs boys are pretty awesome
me sara and kendra went to a 5 stake dance. i met will ross, who is one of the nicest kids everrr
this. is the infamous picture. nick, jackson, ian and ryan.
they jumped off a huge rock at eno & of course me and
sara liked watching
here are my favorites. brandon, nick, jackson, kendra & sara.
i dyed part of my hair pink, along with sara and kendra.
it snowed on christmas!!!
me & my dad made the perfect snowman
My break was really intense, but now since im finally back at school (besides taking a breather day today) i'll definitely keep up with blogging.
much love,
j.
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