in the bleak

look at these two perfect girls. i'm the luckiest.

Today was incredibly gloomy. The sky was a mysterious grey and rain and mist came down non stop all day. It has made everyone in a bad mood.

I woke up 1.5 hours before my only class today. I wish i stayed in bed all day. with my two, watching movies one after the other. but instead i went to class.

At the moment i am repeating your rocky spine by the great lake swimmers. Absolute perfection. It puts me in this new place that is not one bit dismal.

I am blogging in part to delay my homework. it seems so unappetizing at the moment.

A couple things...

Thanks Avery for going with me to the store. Best part of my day. goofball.

& HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY to my oldest and only sister, Jessica. Wish we could go out and celebrate together. Seems like it will be forever until that happens again, the pains of getting older. Love you bunches. Wish I could've bought those M&M's with our faces on them. The mail is bringing something else though....

whenever a day is a bad one, remember that everyday you wake up, it will be farther in the past. it always gets better. and it always goes on.

Much love,

j.

coll in a nut

{tonight at the sock party}

Here's an abbrev. of my college experience so far

-abbreviating everything (thanks to amy) like the title, which is an abbreviation for college in a nutshell

-having avery make me ramen almost every night

-having way too many people be in our room at a time

-laying out in the quad on my quilt at night waiting for everyone to get back from the parties

-heming/fixing everyone's stuff

-walking in the city constantly, especially to harris teeter and cvs

-putting on bummy clothes the second i get out of class

-freaking out and cleaning my room in every way

-seeing lion king in 3D and crying the whole time

-making new friends almost everyday

-never taking enough pictures

-making my bed atleast 3 times a day

-watching movies almost 24/7

-getting incredibly good grades on everything

-getting woken up everyday by friends/kelly

-never having enough of amy and kelly

-loving everyone and everything

still and always will be in love with college

much love,

jeanette

ridiculous injuries

I have gotten some ridiculous injuries lately. ridiculous. and they seemed to happen all at the same time.

The first "injury" i got was tendonitis in both my left wrist and ankle. no idea how i got it, but it was really obnoxious.

The second, and most dramatic, is my finger. I was on my friends bed, and wanted to jump onto my friend ethan's bed. he had just opened an otter pop and there were scissors laying on his bed, opened. I jumped onto the bed and my hand landed on the scissors. my finger got a cut right across the knuckle. i cried a lot, but only because it was the "last straw" to a bad day. i'm okay now.

Yesterday, my friend amy rolled over my big toe twice with my rolly chair. it has a bruised cut on it. It hurts pretty bad too.

I also burned my thumb recently while playing with a lighter.

Seriously hope all these random incidents don't get any worse.


much love,


j.

why college makes my heart full

So many things have happened and have been experienced since i left for college on the 2nd.

it has almost been two weeks.

two amazingly full weeks.

i have felt an incredible amount of emotion in every aspect, and it has made me realize some very important things.

1. i am completely fine the way i am

2. absolutely everyone deserves love and attention

3. sleep is overrated

4. good friends are incredibly important (and i have found so many!)

5. this is the best part of my life so far

6. dont jump and land on scissors. it will end in a night full of tears.

{me, with kelly and amy}

{me and ames}

{me, kelly, amy and danielle}

{andrew, ames, me and deshawn}

i want to name absolutely all of the amazing people i have gotten to know, but that would take so long. and i would fear to leave someone out. but, you know who you are. and you mean so so so much to me.

i love you all! especially all of those i left at home. i miss you, but i am happy! no worries!

much love,

j.

6 reasons why i love college

Here are 6 reasons why i love my dorm:

me, kelly and amy's heights

the OTHER room

our growing quotes in the toilet room. with a mustache on the mirror

my food stash

THE most amazing chair. goes about 25 mph down the hallway.

and my ridiculously comfy bed.

IM SO EXCITED!!!!!

much love,

j.

the power of a photograph

This picture was taken awhile ago, feel free to try to figure out where.

But, it's kind of my secret.

Pictures are incredible.

They create this effect, where your mind goes back to when it was taken.

I tend to take hundreds of photographs for everything I do.

Only because I know that someday, I will be so grateful to myself for capturing all of what I did.

Heading off in five days,

until then,

j.

i really want to

{me grilling hot dogs because sometimes i like to pretend like i know what im doing, except i actually did grill those and they didnt taste too bad}

I really wanted to write an awesome post, because the one i wrote before this is just kind of pitiful. but all that comes to mind is random things, so here it goes.

I am really into tim mcgraw and fishing right now. and no, i dont think its a phase. i think i just never gave either of them a chance and now that i finally have, i am embracing them both (i've spent the past week listening to a tim mcgraw pandora playlist and i love all of his songs. all of them)

I finally finally got my lexapro. i took it for the first time last night. i think i feel the difference already. during lunch today i was about to freak out, and then i didn't, so thats a good sign. but, i think it makes me ridiculously tired because i could NOT wake up this morning.

I learned that i can take my hello kitty toaster to college, which is amazing!

Speaking of college (which EVERYONE UNDER THE SUN asks me about all the time, and no i'm not leaving until the 2nd) I kind of wish i was already there. I was so bored last night i started packing. I just need it now.

I found a cure for my feeling-faint everyday. blue gatorade. and i could drink it every.day. (get some)

things ive learned in the past few days:

-i can't not ever get a teacup pig. i would miss out on so much happiness.

-if you stick a raisin in water, itll become a grape again

-YSA is actually amazing, and ill miss everyone in it here.

-tim mcgraw and faith hill are married!

also, i had a dream last night that i was in solitary confinement. and i was trying my hardest to talk to people in the other cells. what does that mean??

if youre having a bad day, listen to this.

basically the days leading up to college will consist of working, stumbleuponing, packing, and dreaming of charlotte. all my friends already left so it feels incredibly lonely.

i'll be okay. it always gets better.

much love,

j.

some things i can't live without

besides the obvious essentials and needs,

i bring to you my short list of some of the things i can't live without:

1. Cool Blue flavored Gaterade.

2. Victoria Secret's PINK.

3. Magnum icecream bars.

4. nerf guns (especially wars with my dad)

5. fishing (my new found hobby)

6. stumbleupon

7. perfume (or atleast smelling good)

8. nature

9. music

10. the gospel.

my little, mighty hero

This picture may be blurred, but it means so much to me.

I have babysat for lucy and her siblings (seth, hazel and avery) many times.

i absolutely love the mangum family.

every single one of them,

but what happened to lucy, and how she responded is absolutely inspiring.

if i were bitten by a shark, i would most likely be afraid of the ocean,

and be absolutely distressed. but not lucy. not one bit.

the second i walked into the door she was exuberant and i would've never suspected anything happened besides her hopping around and me already knowing the story.

i got about 3 minutes alone to talk to lucy amongst the chaos and excitement.

i could tell she was already sick of talking about sharks,

but she was patient with my questions,

"what did you think of when you got bit?"

"did you know i saw you on tv?"

"did you know that im extremely proud of you?"

visiting was just what i needed. i wanted lucy to know that i was yet another person that was so incredibly proud and amazed by her. and i always will be.

i am so happy i got to see the kiddos and jordan one last time before college.

lucy in extremely good spirits

me and jordan

me and kendra with all the kiddies

hazel combing my hair

not many people are like lucy,

especially not me.

little kids teach us more than we know.

especially the ones who go through experiences we'll never go through.

and react a lot better than we ever would.

much love,

j.

the smell of something new

{my wall collection of labels}

i love new smell.

it always seems to capture the immense potential that something has.

a new home,

shoes in the box,

clothing with tags,

plastic sealed,

an unopened can of dr pepper or

babies.

when something is new, it has its purpose, but you never know the extent of the potential it contains, how immensely it will impact the world and how it will so dramatically effect you.

sometimes things may be not new or old, but they are new to you. like people. but, they have the most dramatic effect on everything else in the world.

and especially me.

much love,

j.